Tuesday, Jun. 21, 2005-3:31 P.M.
Current music:: Flyleaf-I'm sorry
Current mood:: happy, bored, angry, hurt, betrayed, all mixed up together becomes moodless

Kay now time to blog.. i'm so moodless and the thing is i'm feeling something that everyone feels when they're betrayed by someone.. but the thing is i dont know who betrayed me but someone did.. i think its a guy or someone. I'm feeling like i'm not willing to live no more. No matter how ironic it sounds but its the truth. I'm weak and stupid to fall into someone's arms and just let them betray me just in a blink in an eye. That guy thought that i was the one for him but somehow i also think so but i really want him to be the guy in my life no matter in wat condition, till the day i die. But which fucking guy am i talking about is i'm clueless as hell.

Ok this is really getting stupid and ironic.. perfect song "Get Over It".. i dont really know what the fuck i'm writing but it just happens to be what i had to write.. i never knew where all this feelings and emotions come from..

I'm confused, betrayed, and so hopeless. I'm such a hopeless girl in everyones eye.. i dunno i just feel the glares from certain people who just dont appreciate me. Everyone thinks i'm a backstabbing bitch but seriously they're the ones themself who are the fucking backstabbing bitch. I dont think they even know what backstabbing means.. i mean like "WAKE UP HELLO??!!!" backstabbing doesnt really means insulting anyone.. it means just even talking about the person with no insult is already called backstabbing..seriously no ones perfect. not even the holiest person on earth..

ARGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!! life is so frustrating for me especially..

xoxo moodless person out xoxo

Friday, Apr. 15, 2005-9:03 P.M.
Hey. Yup I'm not in a very good mood but I can give you reasons to make you sympathise me. Yeah i'm just kidding but I'm still gonna pour everything out from my system to make me feel better.Ok lets get it started YEAH!

*Ok, today there's this girl in my class whose name starts with P, she was totally accusing me of things I haven't done so technically i got furiously angry mad.

*I have a few weeks till midterm, few months till trials, finals, etc. So basically my parents kept pressuring me to study especially my dad. He totally thinks I'm like lying EVERYTHING to him. He so DOESN'T TRUST ME. N y u wat it totally HURTS BADLY. Cuz when someone close to you doesn't trust you it really really hurts. No matter how many times you try proving them wrong, they'll never believe you even if they see it in their eyes. Yeah LIFE SUCKS TOTALLY LIVES IN MY WORLD.

*I have like such a long list of CD'S to buy and I ran out of cash i mean like what a bummer. My wishlist goes something like this:
1- My Chemical Romance-Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge
2- Simple Plan's albums
3- Green Day's albums
4- Papa Roach latest
5- Jimmy Eat World
6- Avril Lavigne's special edition

oops g2g now i'll continue la8er

Sunday, Mar. 27, 2005-4:05 P.M.
Hey! I totally suck because I haven't wrote in here for hell a long time. It's all thanx to my sucky computer at home and the not so working modem and it's DSL for gods sake. Right now I'm the Equestrian Club typing this and also trying to finish my assignment. This computer is more suckier than mine. But wat the hell. Right now all I wanna do is catch up on reading my fanfic which I haven't read since January. Yup how that sucks. Anyway I'm done. All I hope is everything will turn out allright.

Tuesday, Jan. 18, 2005-6:33 P.M.
Hey Hey Hey!! Sorry I haven't written for so long cuz there was some problem with the DSL line and it sux! I haven't been online for more than a month and it was pure torture for me. Anyways I'm really tired and purely exhausted cuz I came back from sports practice an hour ago. I had to run one round around the school which is more than 200 meters I think, then I had to do long jump which I hate, then lastly I had to do a 100 meters run not jog for your information which is very tiring. Anyways am reading Hogwats OverExposed: The Return of Salazar Slytherin. Is nice and has three stories and long so it's interesting. I would recommend it to those who like though.

Blah enough of my babbling and chitter chatter got to go now. So I'll write later soon I think if I've the time.

xoxo Farah xoxo

Wednesday, Dec. 15, 2004-12:20 A.M.
It's 'bout time I can add an entry 'cause the 'Add an entry' page was down for a few minutes. Yah that's bout it.

Just kidding. Anyways nothing much really happened (rolls eyes) as usual (thinks "does anything interesting ever happens during the holidays")during the holidays ("Nah it's all usual of a boring month"). Okay I'm all a lil bit acting like a psycho or something, I dunno by talking to myself in my head. Well I don't feel myself these days nyways.

Ok skool is like coming in 3 more weeks I think. So I hope it comes by very extremely quickly so I can get the boredom out of my room till the next holidays come by.

I'm also currently reading fanfiction. So after finishing writing this, I'm gonna finish reading a few stories of HP (winks) ooh love them!! Then maybe find a suitable layout for Espourpur.

Anyways enough of my non-stop babble and till then I'll say good night and good morning to y'all!

xoxo ME!!

Thursday, Dec. 09, 2004-6:07 P.M.
Hey!! Today is like the last day of my intensive tuition course!! Woohoo it's bout time it came.. gawdd I'm like So... tired. argghh but I've to continue tuition which is not intensive but it's for the year long to prepare me for my PMR, an exam which is kinda similar to the SATs even though I'm in gr9 though. Oh well that's life. I still haven't finish customising the layout yet cuz I've been super... busy with the loads of homework. I got the design from Teendesigns. It's such a great layout! Hope you like it. I'll try to finish the layout at least by today or tomorrow. Well gotta go and read some fics, now so..

TTFN xoxo me

be .... different